Thursday, May 14, 2009

...too picky?

My purpose in life is to serve Hakadosh Baruch Hu.

My purspose in life is to defeat my yetzer hara, and reach my full potential.

My purspose in life is to be closer to HaShem.

"Thanks for suggesting Mr Ploni ben ploni, he seems like a mentch, however he doesn't make time to learn Torah, I mean, he doesn't have a seder, he said that himself, I am not interested"

A storm breaks.

I hang up the phone, I am too tired to speak to anyone, too hurt.

Tidbits of the conversation are playing in my head...I am confused.

Thanks for reminding me that I am too picky, I believe I left the earning potential, looks, family background, education and all that open...but I only specified that...well, he should be , well, kovea itim.

To a bachur, that is what it comes down to, you love Torah? I am not a cardiac-Jew, I want to be a practical one, you love Torah? Then make time for it!!

A guy with a good heart is something to value, of course, but a guy who doesn't have a seder, is something I can't value.

No, let's not play games, don't tell me I will marry a mean guy who has a seder, why do you think it has to be the one (good middos) or the other ( has a learning seder) ?

Thanks also for reminding me that thousands of singles will never marry because they are picky-just like me.

I hang up the phone , I am too tired to speak to anyone. I grab my siddur and I pour my heart out to My Father In Heaven.